YESTERDAY ONCE MORE

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September 26th, 2003

memories

Posted by rahrah at 04:51 PM on September 26, 2003.

Softly in the dusk, a woman is singing to me,
taking me down the vista of years, till I see
A child sitting under the piano, in the boom of the tingling strings
And pressing the small, poised feet of a mother who smiles as she sings.

In spite of myself, the insidious mastery of song
Betrays me back, till the heart of me weeps to belong
To the old Sunday evenings at home, with winter outside
And hymns in the cosy parlour, the tinkling piano our guide.

So now it is vain for the singer to burst into clamour
With the great black piano appassionato. The glamour
Of childish days is upon me, my manhood is cast
Down in the flood of remembrance, I weep like a child for the past.


Thought i'll share one of my favourite poems with you guys.

Secondary school rankings are out, and i'm so proud of SC. We moved 2 notches up, from being in 10th position to the 8th. SC will always remain a part of me.
Once an SC girl, forever an SC girl. You can take a girl out of SCGS but you can never take SC out of her.

And I remember, the whole cohort was mugging like crazy, having study camps, Maxine, Myra and I slogging in the library, Ching and I hanging out at BK after school just to study.
The prelims were horrid and the teachers kept making us picture what we wanted to achieve at the end of our 4 years of education. It all paid off.

The school crest of jade and gold - "Kim Gek", a young girl being educated in the best manner. We're polished, girls with class and quality. Nothing can ever replace SC.

And i admit being sorely disappointed when i got posted to NY, because it was lacking the school spirit that SC always had. I've loads of complaints about the school, but NY can never be compared to SC - it falls far, far, below it. Contemplated changing schools - SA, AJ, AC... But i stayed in NY for the friends. I must say, it was the people that made me stay.

Now i think, what could have happened if i got admitted to SA? Would I be happier, would i be achieving so much more? Then again, what's the point? Till today, i still regret my choice but the people make up for the horrendous school culture (or the lack of it). I'm still having fun, enjoying life and taking things in my stride.

Of course I miss SC. And i know i would want to give something back to my alma mater - just because it means so much to me.

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September 25th, 2003

hmm..

Posted by rahrah at 04:29 PM on September 25, 2003.

Just returned home from school. The weather is perfect and all I want to do is stare out of my window, to vegetate, to have a moment of peace and quiet.

That's pretty sad, eh?

Literature test today didn't go very well - did not complete the esaay. I hate it when i spend so much time on the construction of my sentences. I hate it when words don't flow easily anymore. I hate it when i'm just dry, void of any inspiration.

And life is getting so boring and monotonous - it makes me feel so claustrophobic and trapped and i really do want to escape into nothingness. Whatever.

I'm not coherent.

I miss so many people.

Just testing out the image attachment function! Seems pretty cool.

SPEAK

September 24th, 2003

the perfectionist

Posted by rahrah at 05:39 PM on September 24, 2003.

My friends were supposed to drop by my place today, but MingYan wasn't feeling well, so it was called off. And honestly, even though it isn't her fault that she's sick, i can't help but feel irritated when someone cancels an appointment with me.

I make no effort to conceal my annoyance and I refrain from speaking. But i never bear these grudges and after awhile, i'm happy again.

I'm a perfectionist by heart, everything I do must be perfect, must be organised and must follow a certain path. Yes, how very rigid, but i don't like to be unprepared and I must plan for the day. Perhaps i may appear strange to my peers because of my preoccupation with paper creases and dog ears. They irritate me, period.

Well, okay. Got to return to the topic of weathering. How horrid. Cheers. :D

SPEAK

September 23rd, 2003

first entry

Posted by rahrah at 04:38 PM on September 23, 2003.

Hello. First entry here. I think i might consider moving here because i love the clean and neat templates.

Good day today - topped my class for Chinese (How very surprising) and did quite alright for my Literature Test. B grade, not bad at all. *pats self*

I'm stressed. There are just so many things to do and all i want to do is to sleep. To close myself in the closet or something. hehhe.
Currently listening to: Linkin Park's Numb

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